Wednesday, March 5, 2008

考試


        又是一個新學期。在公開快要兩年了,一切都習慣了。從一開始的迷惘鬱悶到如今的習慣與麻木。兩年的時間,實際上過得很快,眼見有些只讀大專的同學已經在準備實習了。而我的一段歷程也將在今年的七月份結束。迎來的是又一段新的經歷。
        開學的第一天,也就是2008.3.3,上帝就給一份很大的禮物。大學六級我也過了。在公開的兩年裏面,我無往不利,所有的考試都是一次就通過。這個事情連我自己都覺得非常驚訝,真是太NB了。
        可是,我也會問爲什麽。在班中,我的基礎算是最好,對英語學習也有興趣,可是我並非是那種非常勤奮,非常努力的那一群人。反而是吊兒郎當,喜歡咋的就咋的。想上課就去上,不想去就逃。經常不在學校過夜,跑回家不是看電影電視就是玩電腦遊戲。而那些每天都在努力和拼命的人很多時候都差那麽幾分而與及格無緣。這些纔是我所好奇的。基礎的好與坏當然在一定程度上決定了平時的學習效果和考試成績,可是很多人好不是笨鳥先飛,勤能補拙。再説,有些人的基礎根本就不比我的糟糕,反而要比我的扎實很多。爲什麽就不及格呢?爲什麽呢?
        如果說一個人基礎不好,也不努力去學習,不及格我覺得是活該,是再正常不過的事情。但爲什麽就連一個基礎本來就很不錯,平時也很勤奮讀書的人依舊攷不過六級英語呢?這個事情值得斟酌。既然基礎好,題目就不可能不會做,既然平時有勤奮讀書,做的題目和背的單詞肯定也比別人要多。可就是過不了。或許就是缺少了靈活運用還有就是臨場的發揮。運氣,那是當然的。這個東西我覺得很重要。儘管我在考試的時候憋尿憋得很辛苦,可還是能完成試題並且通過考試。
        大專部分的考試差不多都要結束了。真希望我往後的考試也能秉承之前的運氣和氣勢,繼續一次就過。

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

安靜。閲讀。書。


        從來不知道原來讀書是可以這樣的安靜。書,原來是可以安靜地閲讀。一直以來都很難靜下心來閲讀一本書,尤其是那些枯燥的理論性書籍。但其實是可以的。只要force自己去讀,force自己靜下心來什麽都不想專注于那些文字,其實是可以的。是可以安靜地看書的。
        閲讀,確實能讓我集中精神;閲讀的確讓我的心安靜下來驅走煩悶;閲讀,的確讓我忘卻了呢些不如意。安靜地閲讀一本書,原來就是這麽簡單。而我從來都沒想過。
        看著那些文字,我不再覺得孤獨和孤單,儘管書的作者說寫作是需要孤獨的。但作爲讀者的我,有了她的“孤獨”作伴后我便不再感覺到孤獨了。她的孤獨與孤單我了解,她的心情她的感情我都能感受到。我進去了,第一次看書看文章如此地投入,簡直就是陷進去了。作者的每字每句都如此的清晰,都能那樣的了解。這是第一次。被迫的閲讀,原來也是可以如此深刻。
        從來沒想過被迫的閲讀是如此的“有趣”,讓我領悟到每天如此的“強迫”閲讀,其實是對自己很有益処的。起碼增加了自己的閲讀量,再來就是把自己買回來的書本全部消滅掉,全部啃掉,進而全部k掉。這本來就一直是我的想法,只是自製力太弱的我,一直都沒有行動起來。想想這次也是個很好的機會,這樣一來,我的書就不會被浪費掉了。而我的錢也就沒有白花了。的確是個很好的事情。
        煩躁的心因閲讀而靜下來,淩亂的思緒因閲讀而停止纏繞。在那兩個小時裏面,我完成閲讀一本書,同時我也完全沉浸在閲讀的世界裏面,忘卻了身邊的一切也忘卻了世界。

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Monday, September 10, 2007

Condom VS Sanitary Napkin

                                   ——三人約會之延續

繼前天晚上的三人約會后,昨天我又得一新消息。前晚在飯桌上,夢如已經已經在那胡亂幻想什麽condom sanitary napkin的事情了。爾後,那天晚上,她真的就把她之前所幻想的東西給實現了。據説,她剛好是period,然後又剛好約了橙子出來,那所以呢,那天晚上他們兩個又再做了些“該做”的事情了。好在她說那天的量不是很多,做起來是會有blood,但感覺就像橙子在和virgin做一樣。

最終就是condomsanitary napkin了。厲害啊!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Sunday, September 9, 2007

3人“約會”?!

 

昨晚請夢如出去吃飯,title很多,一個是她準備囘OHIO了,一個是我這個月有薪水了,再一個就是我的大學四級過了……

飯前就去逛一下中華啊,流前啊,地王。聽説浩楠下個星期生日,那就順便去買份禮物給他咯。飯桌上,老王同志的一通電話,說要和夢如見面。之後大概9點多的時候就出來了。本來我見了一下他就走人了,可是之後沒走遠,夢如就來電話了說讓我回去,說老王想見我,還說什麽老王一見我走就把臉拉下來了。哎~無辦法又得去做電燈泡,那當然也是因爲要見見老同學啦,也是的,整整一年沒有見面了。有機會就該見見了。

於是又得折回去咯。之後就3個人去了一家coffee shop喝東西。坐下之後夢如韭一直在聊電話、發短信,雖然我也好不了多少,我也一直在發短信,但起碼我還是一直和老王聊天阿。3人“約會”感覺很奇怪。

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Saturday, September 1, 2007

開學咯~

又是一個新學年了。95開學了。記得去年開學的時候,還有RAYMOND的鼓勵,今年,唉~啥都沒了。

有得囘“療養院”了。

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Monday, August 27, 2007

大學四級,過了~

如題。準備12月份的6級試~
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Thursday, August 9, 2007

無題

 

PART1 回到“原點”

自從blog.com被封之後,RaymondLJ的相繼“離去”,只剩下Rainman時不時地來訪,這裡便又回復到從前的安靜了。就像當初初來乍到之時,沒有人讀沒有人看沒有人評論,靜靜地寫著自己的所見所聞所想。靜,但很孤獨,很寂寞,現在也是如此。就像回到了原點一樣。

 

PART 2 棱角太多

我一直都是個很多棱角的人,性格的暴躁,態度的硬朗,説話的直接等等,都讓我在人群屬於劣勢。有些時候我確實覺得懊惱,從小到大也都是這樣,任性慣了,野蠻慣了,因此很多時候在遇到突發的情況時,反應都是即時的,沒有多考慮就行動,話也是如此,常常是脫口而出,可往往又是到過頭來才發現自己說錯話做錯事了。

 

PART 3 有些人有些事

有時候還真搞不懂那些人的腦袋瓜到底裝的是什麽東西。自己說過的話不管對錯似乎都不用去負責的,只管自己是“頂頭上司”就在那邊橫行無忌。當手下的人做錯事的時候,想的不是自己的口誤而是別人的理解能力差,別人的工作能力不好,又不想想他自己是怎麽說話的,怎麽表達的。Awesome! 簡直就是不可理喻。而且不管什麽時候,只要找到機會就兇狠狠地惡人一把,還真是無聊透了。這樣的人,不管能力再怎麽好都是個爛透的人。

 

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

終于回家了

 

已經有一個月沒有回來這邊看看自己的家了。也不知道是哪些無聊的瘋子把blog.com給封了。要不是Raymond介紹了個代理網站給我,恐怕我現在還在“流浪”。

最近,由於這個家被封了,無奈之下才跑去163另外開一個blog。說真的,怎麽都覺得不夠這裡好,畢竟這裡都已經辛辛苦苦經營了1年半了,哪會沒有感情啊。怎麽說都無法放棄這個家。就像Rainman說的一樣,不在乎有沒有看,只在乎能不能繼續寫。Raymond則說既然都被封了,幹嘛還要繼續往上寫東西啊。可是不知道爲什麽,我縂覺得我的家縂有一天能重見光明的,所以我不能丟下它不管,我要繼續經營它。

今天收到blog.com發來的email,告訴我有新的評論,原來是Rainman寫的。他說在東北地區能上blog.com,好像要逐漸解封。我似乎看到了一線希望,要真的是這樣就實在是太好了。等待著真正解放的那一天。

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Saturday, February 17, 2007

The new year’s Eve


 
Happy new year everyone.New Year’s Eve again. Well, just feel so different. No more exciting, no more surprised, no more expectation. Maybe because I am not a baby anymore. Though there are shows on the CCTV, this year what I want to do is to sit down quietly and do some reading. However, I found that I don’t have any reading feelings with my room. My room cant give me a good reading atmosphere. For the problem of my affection, I just want to be quiet, gentle and do not want to think about that problem, en… it’s better to forget it. Well, new year, this is another new year. A pig year.

Happy new year everyone again.

 

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Saturday, February 10, 2007

無題 No Title

p.s: A long post that combine English with Chinese.
 

Part 1  日子  Days

 

都是些百無聊賴的日子,每天不是上網、看書就是復習功課,手頭上有錢的話就到外頭去逛逛,買點什麽。幾乎都是淩晨兩三點才睡覺,到中午十一二點才起的床,簡直就是些亂七八糟的生活。每次放假都是這個樣子,日夜顛倒,頽廢啊!其實,也有想過在放假期間能有正常的作息,只是發現生物鐘實在是難調。在晚上總是無法抵擋那寧靜的夜色和氣氛,白天又總捨不得周公的熱情招待。於是乎,路就越走越遠了,頭也囘不了了。

These are the bored days that I have. Everyday what I do is surfing the internet, reading books or reviewing my homework. If I have some money in my hands, then I would go out and do some shopping. Go to bed at two or three am in the morning, then wake up at about 11 or 12 am in the noon almost every day. This is the upside-down life absolutely. Each time, when I am in my holiday, my life would be in such situation which upside down day and night. Decadent! Actually, I do want to have a normal life during my holiday, but at last, I found that it is not easy to regulate my biologic clock. At nights, I always cannot withstand the quiet atmosphere, while at days I want to sleep more. That is, the more I go the more difficult I could come back.

年近歲晚,出去逛街顯然是少不了的了,只是最近我實在是出去得太多了。出去逛街,作爲一女生,少不了的shopping,隨之而來的就是衣櫃裏面無端端地多了很多件新買的衣服。真沒辦法,鬼叫自己說要轉型,衣櫃就得換血啦。雖然不是大批量地“進貨”,但也要顧及到衣櫃原來就有“存積貨”啊。反正,就是不知道該怎麽調整。還有就是,在衣櫃大換血的同時,我的荷包也在遭遇著大出血的慘況。好在明天就是我的生日,然後不久就是新年,好在好在,看來我的荷包還是有救的。

Well, the Chinese New Year is coming. As a girl, is hard to avoid going out to do some shopping. For this, my wardrobe is full my new-buy clothes. Well, I know I cant complain much, for I want to change my style and then my wardrobe should be subrogated. Although I didn’t buy a lot, I still have to think about my quondam stock. In a word, I don’t know how to adjust, and that’s it. What’s more, therewith I buy my new clothes, my purse becomes thinner and thinner. However, it is good that the New Year is coming and tomorrow is my birthday then I would get some lucky money to save my purse.

想想過春節年,額頭就又冒出了“一滴汗”來。每年似乎都差不多,都是年前緊張,年時無聊,年后平淡。或許最高興的事就是收利市和數錢的時候了。慢慢地,慢慢地過年的真正意義似乎都被淡忘了,尤其是在城市裏,人們似乎都把過年看成了賺錢的最好時機,充滿了濃重的商業氣息,又或是把它看作送大禮的好時節,多少貪官都是靠這一過年來收取巨額利益的。再這麽往下說,或許這一過年就成了所有污點的代名詞了。所以,還是不往下說好了。

Think of the New Year, I found there is a drop of sweat on my forehead. Well, every year is similar, no more surprise, not so interesting any longer but bored and fade. Maybe the moment I get the lucky money is the happiest time. Gradually the genuine New Year spirit is fading from people’s memories, especially in the cities. In such highly commercialize age, people seem to look the New Year as a good opportunity to earn money, or look it as the best time to give the big presents. The Chinese malfeasants always depend on the New Year to profit. If I go on talking this topic, perhaps the New Year would become the pronouns of the spots. Therefore, I would not go on. 

Part 2  回復  Comment Reply

 

最近,似乎很有寫英文的感覺,於是乎就寫了好些English Post。很意外的得到了一個新認識的blogger Avi)的支持。本來我也只想寫幾篇而已的,在看到他的comment后,我就有再繼續往下寫的意欲了。

Recently, I do have the mood to write some English posts. And, I am surprised that there is a new visitor came to my blog and gave my posts comments. At the beginning, I just wanted to write several English posts, but after I have read his comments, I do intend to write more.

另一方面,拔筆斎也很有“職業操守”的給我的English post 寫了好些comment,其實我也很感動,也很謝謝他的支持。正如他所說的那樣:“我们这些玩笔杆的就好像演员一样,要是台下没有观众,要是网线的另一头屏幕的另一边没有一个一直支持在下的观众的话,写得再华丽再感人再精彩再龙飞凤舞天花乱坠也是寂寂寞寞孤孤单单的一个人自弹自唱,不过是凄凉的自言自语罢了,又有什么乐趣呢?”雖然,我的文章都不是些寫得很好的文章,但還是會希望得到別人的注意和關注。

On the other hand, Mr. 拔筆斎 is good that he gave some comments to my English posts. In fact, I am so happy and thank him a lot, about what he had done. As what he said:” Writers are just like the actors, if there are no audiences under the stage, no supporters are over the screens on other sides, then no matter how beautiful the words are, it would be just a lonely self-guided film. And it would not have any fun.” Though my posts are not so good, I still hope it would catch people’s eyes and to be paid attention to. 

Part 3 回來的朋友  A redux friend

 

傍晚時分和家人出去吃飯的途中,突然接到一通電話,號碼極爲奇怪。一接,才知道是一個去了英國讀書剛下飛機正在HK的機場等候他的司機接他回家的好朋友。意外,真是意外。沒想到會接到他的電話,也沒想到他會一下飛機就打電話給我。仍然記得去年他去英國的時候是在上飛機的前一分鐘才發短信告訴我說他即將飛往英國讀書了。不過還是會覺得開心,因爲他心裏有我。真的超級感動的說!

At the nightfall, when I went out to have dinner with my parents, I suddenly got a call and the number was so strange. As I answered the call, it was a friend has gone to
UK to study. And he just got off the plane at the HK airport and was waiting for his driver to take him home. I still remember last year when he went to UK, he sent me a message a minute before he embarked to tell me that he was going to fly to UK. Now, I still feel so happy because I know there is a me in his heart.

有時還真的覺得還是朋友最好,心中縂有一個我的位置,這比什麽都要好。其實,我也有想過,或許他第一個想到的朋友不是我,或許他只是剛好在手機電話本上翻倒我的名字所以才打電話給我的,很多的或許(雖然我這麽說似乎不太好),但不管怎樣,我還是覺得很高興。儘

Sometimes, I do think the friends are the best. There is always a place for me to stand in his/her heart. This is better than any other things. Actually, I also thought that maybe I am not the first one that he thought of, maybe he just seen my name on his contacts in his cell phone, so many likelihoods (I know it is not good to say so), but anyway, I still feel so happy.

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